Saturday, January 28, 2012

Missing : Motivation

You know.....mojo, action, catalyst, drive, fire under my ass

I am coming up on my 1 year anniversary and I'm letting it slip all away. In one year the most I lost was 63 pounds. Now that may seem like a great accomplishment but that was as of October. I probably could have lost another 30-40 pounds by now.

Instead I have put back on damn near 20.

I mean it goes on fast when you aren't working out or giving a shit what you eat.

I'm not gonna lie, I have enjoyed every minute of stuffing my face, but now I am "facing" the reality.

Why have I done or "undone" this to myself? I'm still fitting in my 16-18 pants and my "L" shirts but I don't look as tight and don't feel as peppy.

I have officially fallen off the wagon, and I guess it was only a matter of time. I have said I need to get back into my grove, and attempted it a few weeks ago and lost 8 pounds, only to give up and gain it back. 

I also have been neglecting my blog and you my followers. 


I mean life gets in the way, I get it....but I haven't made excuses up until now so why start. I guess realizing it now before I undo all the hard work I have put in, in the last year is a start. I don't want the last year to go to waste, so at least I can say I have lost some weight, and I need to lose more.

I have all the proper tools, I just need to get to work.

You know the rule, it takes 28 days (or something like that) to start a habit. So here's to Day #1 of starting over again. 

I'm 238 pounds and 219 was my lowest in October. This is my first "mini" goal, to get back to that. Then I will go from there. 

I posted this note on the wall at work above my desk to remind me......

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  1. I gained back 30 between September and the middle of this month, and I felt awful about it. Just get back on track with the eating now - don't keep letting yourself and your weight loss go. I've been counting calories and eating well for the last two weeks, and my body is starting to feel great again. Isn't it scary how easy it is to let go and allow the weight to come back? You've got this, Bonnie! You can do stop it now!

    1. Thanks Christina.....and congrats on getting back into the swing of sure is hard after all this time. I did it before though so I definitely can do it again! xoxo

  2. Welcome back to day 1-you can do it!

  3. Great reminder! Day one is as good a place as any to start. :)

  4. You'll get back there-I know it.

  5. You can do it! Your power is in there, its just hiding. Find it, capture it and then be unstoppable. Just remember: Your journey has molded you for your greater good. And it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think you have wasted time. It took each and every situation you've encountered to bring you to the now. And now is RIGHT ON TIME! Go GIRL!

    1. Well aren't you full of motivation.....Thank You!!!!

  6. 63 lbs is a fantastic amount of weight to have lost. I realize that through the holidays that we all lose focus and it's not fun. Especially with the weight that has creeped back on its tough hon. You can do this and as you said, day 1 is the only place we can start. You can do this twin. Now get to doin. Love ya.

  7. Sometimes you really need to kick your own ass. Accountability helps so you're awesome for writing this blog. Whenever I have a few days of feeling down and like I want to stop trying my mom tells me to write a blog. I get it off my chest and I become accountable for being lazy and not wanting to try and it pushes me.

    I won't sugar coat it (because you probably dont need any more sugar) - you gotta smarten up! Don't let us all your hard work go to waste, girl! Just do it, one day at a time! MAKE yourself exercise - you will thank yourself after. You will thank yourself when the weight falls off and it will get you back into the swing!

    You can do this - its all up to you. Nothing to it but to do it!
    best of luck..because we've all been there..and sometimes we need the luck.

  8. Well Bonnie, first of all I LOVE the pictures at the top of your blog. Awesome.

    And I can completely relate to your blog. Heck, I've written the exact same things many times.(I don't know about you but it is so comforting to know someone else feels the exact same way)

    I think one of the key things you said was about the blogging. I notice when I don't blog, write down what I've ate, that I slip off the map and get off course.

    I'm happy that you blogged about this. I too am trying to blog more.

    One more thing Bonnie. If someone told you that they lost 63lbs in a year.....I don't think you would think one negative thing about it. Own those hard lost 63lbs. Think of 12 bags of sugar you aren't toting around. That's a big accomplishment. :)

  9. I agree, it takes time. And the route doesn't always go straight down, sometimes we need to go up and sometimes we stay where we are for a while.

  10. You can do it. Just as I can do it. I have lost 10 pounds and am starting again today to achieve the ultimate goal one small step at a time. We can do it and we are all here to support each other and lift each other.

  11. Crawl your ass right back on that wagon and put a head lock on Mr. Motivation! You can do it. Just focus!

  12. You can do it Bonnie! I love you and think you have accomplished some amazing things in the past year. Come work out with me at the gym!!! I'm leaving Saturday for a week but I'll be back. It would be awesome if we could get together and work out. <3

  13. Aww, I'm so behind on my beloved blogs. Sorry to hear how things are going for you. But, you know as well as I do, that you can turn this ship around. :)

  14. I'm great at losing it, but suck at keeping it off...but s of January 2, have lost 7...I am doing monthly goals, little goals to accomplish, 30 lbs seems like so much, keep your challenge but just break it into smaller steps, that might help...anyway, I follow you and I know you will/can do it!!!


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